there are more hearts pumping like your own. don't you dare to hurt mine.

 

hihi, new look finally. :)

haven't been posting on lookbook in ages

and that's all because my stupid mind makes me think stuff that doesn't matter.

but i'm happy to tell you, i'm back!

now i'm getting ready to go to trainstation and take a train to helsinki!

tomorrow i'll have my last  entrance exams and i'm so excited to hit the road again :)

or rail, what ever.

hahaaaa

AND

i must tell you

that in these couple of weeks

i've become cool

'cause i bought these sunglasses

that are super cool

 

  i look cool, don't i!?

lots of love

- cool mimosa

p.s. check this out!

clouds in the shape of clouds

 

aaahahaha

since i spent last night vomiting and couldn't have any sleep

we decided not to move until tomorrow.

so i have one last day to spend with coffee

and i couldn't be happier!

later today me and my friends are going to the park

and drink some white wine

oh, so artsyyyyy :D

i'm going to pack up my things tomorrow

and move to my parents house.

i'm not very excited about this right now since i'm feeling a bit ill and all.

but i'm happy to move on with my life and get out of this apartment.

AND it's nice to have an actual yard where to take my lookbook photos instead of a kitchen wall hahah..

oh well, summer at my parents place... here i come.

i need a real open mind to get through this :D

noooooo 

oh! haha i made last.fm profile
 let's be friends!
<3

i want someone to squeeeze me!

gnaaaarls..

today i had nothing to do.

after my morning walk

i just sat on my cozy sofa and snack some chocolate delicacies.

but that's ok, i guess

life can't always be so exciting.

still i hope tomorrow is because i'm not very inactive person

and during these quiet days i sometimes become frustrated and snappy, 

i've heard.

i don't like to be snappy. it sounds so mean!

but maybe tomorrow brings me some kind of adventures

or something exciting!

and again, i had nothing interesting to tell you about.

nahh..

getting better doesn't happen by waiting.

so i made a decision to be happy again

that's at least something.

and although i now feel like i have no one to talk about my worries

i can go through them inside my head

and notice that there's nothing to worry about.

maybe i should just focus on the good things

instead of the things that make me miserable.

that may sound like i'm just avoiding my problems

and maybe i am

but right now i don't really give a pooooop!

so now it's time to drink my morning coffee

and after that i'm going to go to the park and sit there

and feel like the happiest girl

'cause i have the whole life to wait for

and any sorrow can't take that away from me.

so go wee yourself, depression and self-pity.

mimosa wants to have some fun!

<3

so carry on my dear, what is clear up in the daylight is we’re hung here

 

ughhh, shitty days just continue.

i wasn't going to bring this subject up on my blog

but since i don't feel like i have anyone to talk about it

i guess it's ok if i write something on here.

well, i told this on lookbook and because most of my readers have probably found me there

i'm pretty sure you won't be surprised if i tell you i have had some problems with eating before.

and though i'm partially fine now, my weight has not reached its goal.

i just hate this gaining weight thingy!

and i don't know if i've gained any, i just feel ugly and fat anyways. and it's pathetic.

i don't even know when i started gaining and i myself don't have any goals, i just wanna feel better.

but after all this trying, i don't feel any better.

at least not with myself.. you know, the way i feel when i see myself or when i walk on the streets

among the others.

i hate it. and i felt so puzzled when i noticed today that, again, i didn't want to eat.

of course i did because i'm good at forcing myself to do things i don't like

but i don't know what to think if this continues...

 i just want to be happy again. 

like i was about a month ago.

and now i want to say that i'm not going to continue with this subject anymore. 

i feel a bit ashamed of the whole situation and all but

auuuuugh this is so frustrating.

breaking up with my boyfriend and losing a good friend was the last drop, i'm afraid.

and both of those were my own fault.

now i just have to win again and find a way to feel good about myself.

so because i don't want my blog to contain this kind of shit

i'm going to get better, find a way to like myself again

and then continue with drunk on mimosa. :)

i want this to be a place for good things

and to accomplish that i must be good, too.

soooooo, i don't know when comes the time i'm going to write again

but the next time i will, i will be happy little mimosa.

not this whining poopoo i am now.

and next time i may be living at my parents place

since we're moving out this month.

so my life's gonna change a bit but i'm looking for that

with an open mind.

hope i'll write again, soon! 

- mimosa

wine from champagne flute

hellooo,

i've been a bit busy with my entrance examinations and all

so i decided to have a little break from blogging.

now that i've had a little trip to hämeenlinna

my energy has a bit risen and i'm ready to go on with my life

i don't want to feel bad anymore. crying and misery is so depressing. 

so i won't peek back anymore, it's time to look forward and enjoy what i have right now.

i hope u all have a great week, i'll try to write again soon!